It's 10.07pm now. And i'm finally home. 2 long days. 16 hours of sales and promoting. And I know :) I've learnt so much, and I've changed so much. I'm alot more thick-skinned. I'm no longer afraid to make mistakes and learn from others. I'm alot more approachable. I'm no longer afraid to confront strangers. I'm alot more confident. I'm more experienced and practical. :) I'm no longer afraid to ask. Ask stupid questions too. I don't choose my customers (they choose me) and I no longer judge people by appearance. (okay i still do and later if you read on you'll know why) I sold one set today. Which is quite a achievement considering that the store sold only 2 in 3 months :). And it's only my 2nd day. Though that single sales took a really long time, but at least i clinched the deal. People ask me why am i working when I should be studying now. My answer? Dude, we're having job attachments now. Which is stupid. And a complete waste of time. I might as well get some real work experience now. I'm not desperate for the money, my parents give me more than enough. And I know that. I just wanna learn what it's like "going into" the marketplace. And i'm really glad I've learnt so much and i'm going to learn alot more. OH. And i did one of the craziest things i ever done in my life. There was this really nice Xcraft sales assistant who served me yesterday. AND god. I seriously can melt. She's cute. She's goodlooking. She's sweet. She's nice. She's patient. But today when i went back to the store. She wasn't around anymore. I was a little disappointed. (And a little desperate just to see her one more time you see) And my sales experience helped me alot. I wasn't shy and afraid to ask where she was. I was like asking the other sales assistant. Erm excuse, do you remember this girl sales assistant yesterday, same age as me waiting for o lvl results. That sales assistant saw through me at once, smiled and told me that she's working in another outlet. I walked out, smiling (have to smile alot since i'm a promoter) but disappointed nonetheless. When I'm about to leave the mall, i suddenly decided that i die die must know this girl better. So I ran all the way back to Xcraft and was like, do you know which outlet. Tampines was the answer. God it was 8.15pm already. And i'm tired like #$^!, after standing for 8 hours entertaining and engaging all the uncles, aunties, babies, wannabes and et cetera. But i begged my parents to fetch me all the wall to TM. I must get to know this girl man. I must :) And they did. Being such great parents. (My dad wanted to watch the s'pore thai match, 8pm remember?) And so i rushed to TM around 8.45 and there she was :) The girl of my dreams. So i approached her and... Hey remember me? *smiling widely* (stunned) Haha causeway? *smiling widely too* Yeah :) So why are you here? (she knows that i work until 8pm, i had a relatively long chat with her yesterday) Haha (sales experience -->direct and don't be afraid to speak your mind) I was looking for you at causeway just now, but they told me you're here. So i'm here :) *Smiling too* Oh.. Haha I'll be done around 9.30pm. And we were talking and talking and talking. I got a pair of ear studs that she chose. And she insisted that i wear it and let her see, so i did :). And it cost 16 bucks. But they sold it to me for only 15 :) Man, when you know how to talk and how to smile. Things change alot! My heart was beating really fast. Get her number now now now now dude. That's all that i was thinking about from 8.40 till 9.30pm. But some things still don't change. Like --> I'm ashamed to say. After all that i've done, i still couldn't find that courage to ask her for her name and number. Though i bet it was really obvious that i wanted her number. She should know... But still it's so awkward for both of us. Sigh! She told me she's working till she get her results. So i still have a chance! Gavin you're crazy! I know :) But life feels so much more enjoyable now that I accept the fact that I'm crazy. And I'm ready to lead a crazy life. Dress like a crazy freak. Work like a crazy freak. Study like a crazy freak. Learn dance like a crazy freak. And do whatever i want to do (i'm already doing whatever i wanna do and the greatest thing of it all? My parents are always supportive :) Thanks pa, thanks ma. I enjoy that freedom.

I NEED A GIRL Lyrics
[P. Diddy]Yeah, c'mon
I need a..
I want a.
[Usher]I need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to make my wife
I need a girl who's mine all mine
I need a girl in my life

[P. Diddy]
Yo, I'm internationally known on the microphone
I got it all, but I really need a wife at home
I don't really like the zone, never spend the night alone
I got a few, you would like to bone
But, chicks that romance me, don't tickle my fancy
Only Tiffany, Nancy;
that's not what my plans be
need a girl that could stand me, raise me a family
Go to trips to the Lancy, trips to the Grammy's cause
Most of these girls be confusing me
I don't know if they really love me or they using me
maybe is the money, or maybe you ain't used to me
Cause you was depressed and now you abusing me
That's why I need me a girl to be true to me
Know bout the game, and know how it do to me
Without a girl on my side, shit I ruin me
Forget the world, it's just you and me

[P. Diddy & Usher]
Now let's ride...

[Chorus: Usher]
I need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to make my wife
I need a girl who's mine all mine
I need a girl in my life
I need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to be my wife
Nobody else cuz she's all mine
I need a girl in my life

[Loon]Yo, I da had a lot of women in my lifetime
But see it's not a lot of women that got the right mind
I done had pretty chicks with all the right features
And hoodrat chicks that only rock sneakers
Cell phones and beepers, and know how to treat ya
You break her heart, she'll walk out and leave ya
I find a girl, I'ma keep her
but now I'm getting money and the game getting deeper
you want some real shit, I need somebody I can chill with
I need somebody I can build with
I need somebody I can hold tight
With the time and no full limits, snow white
Anytime we together feels so right
You the girl I been looking for my whole life
God bless me, I'm glad I got the insight
because of you girl, now I understand life

[Loon & Usher]I need a girl...

[Chorus: Usher]I need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to make my wife
I need a girl who's mine all mine
I need a girl in my lifeI need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to be my wife
Nobody else cuz she's all mineI need a girl in my life

[P. Diddy]I had a girl that would've died for me
Didn´t appreciate her so I made her cry for me
Every night she had tears in her eyes for me
Caught a case, shorty took the whole ride for me
First we were friends then became lovers
You was more than my girl, we was like brothers
All night we would play fight under covers
Now you gone, can't love you like I really wanna
But every time I think about your pretty smile
And how we used to drive the whole city wild
Damn I wish you would've had my child
A pretty little girl wit Diddy's style
This shit is wildAll the days that I reminisce
About the way I use to kiss them pretty lips
But as long as you happy, I'ma tell you this
I love you girl and you're the one that I will always miss
I love you, yeah

[Chorus: Usher]
I need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to make my wife
I need a girl who's mine all mine
I need a girl in my lifeI need a girl to ride, ride, ride
I need a girl to be my wife
Nobody else cuz she's all mine
I need a girl in my life(Chorus 4 times)

(Usher)I just want you to be my baby girl I need you to be my baby
I just need you to be my wife
I just want you in my life

I go crazy when i look into your eyes.
I still go crazy when i look into you eyes.

Oh baby. :(

I am one of the few jerks that thinks that the whole world owes me something.
You got a problem with that?

And i hate having to be diplomatic about the whole issue about me quitting the club.
I'm just being nice.

But everyone knows i quit cause
Easy.
1. I hate the chers.
2. I hate the year 1s.

What more do you expect?

So tell me when is all this !*#$ ending.
At least that's something i can look forward to.

Show off that body you got. :)

I'm feeling so fking oppressed.
I had enough of this shit.
No point continuing.
You can eat my balls now that you got what you want bitch.